Have you ever woken up and just thought there has to be more to this life that I live? Well thats something I am fighting alot lately. I am a very emotionally driven person and that can sometimes get me into trouble if there is not something bigger that runs my emotions. See the problem is your heart and your emotions lie. They are of the flesh not of God and that is something that I have learned a very hard way. I always use to think how can I be doing wrong if I am just following my heart and what I feel, well lets get serious. A two year old throws a tantrum if you don't give him a cookie after dinner or the toy he wants for Christmas and all he is doing is following his "heart" aka his wants and what he feels is his needs. See I have been so selfish over the years thinking to myself why can't I have this or that thinking if I could just have it I would be happy. When really in reality it will just fade with the rest and I will want something new in about a week. The void is never really filled by things of the world. And they actually leave you a little more empty than you were before. It's a scary cycle and what's even more scary is that it is easier to continue on in that cycle than it is to step out of it and walk away.Everyone was built with the natural desire to crave something big. Something that is not easily described or understood. The problem with this world is that there are so many "things" that you can fill that void with for a time. And when that one fades you fill it with another but you will never feel really complete. There is still something not right. For those of you who know me I am a person who is very moved by music. Well i was listening to a song by Jeremy Camp called Let it Fade. It talks about letting this world fade... see beyond it. Here are a few of the lyrics...
Have you been walking on a surface thats uncertain
Have you helped yourself to everything thats empty
you can't live this way to long
There's more than this
Have you been standing on your own feet to long
have you been looking for a place where you belong
You can rest you will find rest
Let this old life crumble.. Let this new life prosper in your saving grace
It really makes you think. A lot of people are scared to admit that they are uncertain about there life or that they are just seeking more. It's real... it's natural. I want something so much more than I have. Something that is beyond what this world can give me. The hardest part is taking that first unknown step. That first step that scares the hell out of everyone cause you have no idea where you will end up. But you know what... I say if you knew where you were gonna end up why would you need God. And I have found in my past that if you do take that step into faith and just allow him to guide you the outcome is nothing short of a miracle. My favorite line my dad has said to me is He can't do it without you and you can't do it without him. Meaning he is standing right there with his hand out waiting for me to just take his hand cause he knows I won't make that jump alone and I know I can't make that jump without Him.
